I have gone fully sober.
Not a drop has touched my lips since at least march. I can say it now because it isn’t something I’m trying to hide anymore. Alcoholism has fucked my life. I’ve fucked my life. I drank to forget moments, now i realize that I was just living an empty life. No memories except an excerpt here and there.
I can only go on.
In October I’m going to Peru for a month so that will be chill hopefully. I’ve asked for off and have gotten the approval from HR but still need to go ahead from my boss. I’m going to go, just depends on whether or not I’ll have to look for a new job when I come back.
Haven’t bought the ticket yet, but I’m looking for airbnb’s and started saving to having that spending money.
Aside from that I haven’t been reading a lot. Sort of burnt my self out. I mean I’ve read 60 books in 4 months and to me that is a lot. Then I immediently jumped back into Worm and reread that. which was fucking long. I did enjoy it tho. Taylor is the best in some of my most fucked up favourite ways.
I’m trying to listen to THe collapsing empire but will wheaton is just not a good orator/narrator. I remember listening to Ready Player One and thinking that he was doing it on purpose, that the MC wasn’t supposed to be likable. Turns out while that may have been the case I still don’t really like listening to him speak. On the other hand I started re-listening to Super Powereds and I just fucked hate a lot of the characters. I get that it was made for a younger audience but I fucking hate it when authors assume there readers are idiots. Also one of the main characters constantly critiques someone she calls a “friend” for the thoughts they are having. Like - no bitch - you’re invading someone’s privacy and then trying to thought police them. Go fuck yourself. I fucking hate telepaths. so, yeah, might be done with that series. Which is fucked up because I do remember enjoying the series. especially book 4 I mean I’ve read it like 6 times and at 60 hours in length i figure I must enjoy it on some level.
I’ve also been going to gym everyday. and trying to eat better. Not today, today I had chili and it was delicious.
Been playing back4blood more with some friends and Rogue Legacy 2 when I’ve got some time to myself as well as some games on mtg arena.
thats about it.
I’m a pretty boring person.